CapsizingYourHeart

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29/Kaitlyn/FL

All the bright precious things fade so fast, and they don't come back.


I spent my whole life wanting

Wanting it to be different

Wanting someone else’s life

Hoping there was another version

Somewhere wishing to be me

When will I want what’s mine?

The yearning of things not yet to come

Will forever haunt me as they are lost in the void

Looking in the mirror lately

With tear stained cheeks

And soul to match

Can I release from the latch?

I try to enjoy what’s been given to me

I try so hard to envision that this is it

I won’t get another life

But if that’s so why am I constantly left with

Wanting, yearning, hoping

Nostalgia for things I’ve never tasted

I hope there is purpose mixed into

The sadness that was mixed to make me.

— 3 weeks ago
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I just want to be told it’s okay. That I’m not crazy. That everything will be alright. I want to be held, caressed and melt in your arms. I want you to sit in the rain of my mind with me until the storm passes and you hold my hand and tell me I made it through. Sail with me through the choppy waves in the middle of the ocean until we make it to land and feel safe again. Be my anchor, so I don’t float off and drown. Climb the mountains in my mind, travel the deep valleys in my soul. Understand me, bring me back to earth when I feel like none of this is truly real. Be my safe haven. But I realize no one is coming, no one will save me. I have to save myself.

— 2 months ago with 2 notes